you know, you have weird fans/friends. but I still like you anyway. drop me a line sometime. :D

_{1:46 am - Thursday,January 16, 2003}

i'd love to hear anything you have to say...i'm tired of watching you avoid my eyes...it hurts that you can't look at me...that you wont. the same goes for mark....i do exist. whether anyone wants to aknowledge it or not.

_{1:36 am - Monday,January 13, 2003}

I am. I am RIDICULOUS!! Ridiculous and depressed and hopeless and surrounded by the music of discord, the songs of open-heart surgery, the utterances of broken souls.

_{8:47 am - Saturday,January 11, 2003}

I have tears in my eyes from after having read this entry. Maybe it's because I love you. Because, I do. And why should I?

_{3:25 am - Saturday,January 11, 2003}

flat disinterest?...hmm funny. that's how i feel. tell me how i can beleive anything you say chris. because i want to. trust me.so badly. i want my friend back. but i feel beytrayed beyone beleif. if you really cared why did it take matt coming back and convincing you to feel that way? and why have you not so much as looked at me if you care? i've been around. in my room. in the box office. so, "friend"...where have you been?

_{8:16 am - Friday,January 10, 2003}

are you home? bzzzzzt!

_{1:31 am - Friday,January 10, 2003}

no offense chris, but i think that you perpetuate what is popular and you turn in an instant on the people you call friends. so i think your the last person to give me advice about how to be a friend.

_{6:34 pm - Thursday,January 9, 2003}

thanks for the sentiment. perhaps if you actually spent time around me...you would see that indeed i am happy. just not when i am where i feel i my presence is unwanted. would YOU be happy in a roomfull of people you know have "discussed" you and YOUR desicions for the past two weeks? i think not luv.

_{11:30 am - Thursday,January 9, 2003}

"me" and "cait" it was never fun.

_{2:33 am - Thursday,January 9, 2003}

Yo baby, where've you been? I miss you. *flashes*

_{0:41 am - Monday,January 6, 2003}